Final exam… and music

It’s just the time of every trimester again – final exam. Been trying to slowly revising and biting some notes after I officially off from any form of work, be they brewing the best cup of cappuccino or going here and they and come back with stories.

As commonly said, it’s hard to get started. But once you do, you will most probably be fine after that. Sounds like what happens to my old car’s engine every time before it could go smoothly on the road… Heh

Time of burying my head to the notes and papers also means time for getting stuck in some good numbers whenever a breather is needed. Means? Well… the number will keep playing and playing and playing whenever I needed a time off from the books, or to go together along… And this time, I’m happy to announce, not one but two are in the list. And to top it up, managed to find them again somewhere from the net… Both of them were hits during the 80’s – the era when I was happily growing up.

Mood: Trying to focus
Music: Click more to find out…

 

Oh my…

Oh my God… kiss me kiss me… I’ve just submitted the ever-torturing literature review aka journal summary for this Retail Management subject to my group leader. I am feeling so so so, I mean, real much more lighter compared to the few days back zombie-me. Basically it made me like a zombie was because no quotings were allowed in the writings, which meant everything had to be from my brain. So understanding the journals was a MUST. And I was responsible for two journals, one with 8 pages and another with 22…! But anyway, things ended, finally! Although there will still be further reports to be written for this subject and Sales Management subject soon, but I guess they won’t drag me down so much, as more time frame were given, and they’re more intellectual based with the help of journals – I can goreng my own stories and they’re not that much of restrictions.

Aight, put those academic thingy aside – and share my moments of carefree-ness for a while.

I finally found myself this two numbers from the Internet. It was like a fruitless search for the past twenty years… so rare and I guess not many people know them. Couldn’t even see them in P2P… I bummed into them when I was watching a HK drama series “Dreams of Colours” few years back. Immediately from then I started searching everywhere… Then when the series were showing in the local tv station few months back, arrhh I was even more ‘lustful’ to the songs… Till today, finally finally… I got them from a China website. So hidden, gotta rename the extension before saving… Announcing the two numbers, Twenty years by Bob Waters and Knock on my door by Rebecca Blaylock. Gosh… when you find the very thing that makes you deeply indulged and relaxed, it’s greater than any drugs on earth. (if you want them let me know… ha)

Few hours earlier I ran away again with Marcus as my laoya neighbour were simply distracting me from my work. I was still thinking where to head to while driving, as I wanted a place I can make myself comfortable. I finally settled down at Ka Fei Guan in Melaka Raya (behind main road near DiGi center). It used to be one of my favourite lepak place and I’ve not been there for a long long time. It was a good, feels like coming back to a familiar place after long wander. The two bosses were still friendly, the cafe interior was still nostalgic and cozy, the music played was still calming, the coffee smell was still identically indulging and the beverages were still… mmm nice! And being there alone is yet another beautiful encounter… Oh things are just so perfectly blended… Everything must have been so beautiful putting a big smile on my face when I leave – the boss gave me discounts for my two drinks, heh.

I’ve not had such a beautiful Saturday evening like this for a long time. Was used to be busy with work… and yeah I asked for not to work today – to give way to my writing of course. Sorta like ponteng kerja… heh ;-p

Mood:  …greater than any drugs on earth
Music: Twenty years, by Bob Waters

 

Rebelliously stuck

Some time back, Ben excitedly told me about this number that mesmerized him so much, by keeping that very number playing over and over again, throughout the few hours of monthly inventory routine.

Hardly as I used to, paid too much attention on new songs – I’m slow altogether in this and if you know me, you’ll know. So other than thinking the rhythm and percussion setting were good and the chorous were somewhat a catchy tune to me, not much thought were put on since then…

Today I got that very number playing again. And out of curiosity, I got it somewhere from the Internet despite my suppose-to-be-doing-work state of mood. And not long after that I got myself a copy of the lyrics too… then I started to really listen to it – and that’s my way – if you know me you know.

Don’t know why I just started to like it, and I guess the “likeliness” is still increasing. Unlike its name, which was also repeated throughout the chorous, my tears just couldn’t stop flowing, especially when going through the lyrics line by line… Not that I was saddened, but I was rather touched. It’s a triggering number indeed… that put me into the whirlpool of old and present memories.

Big girls don’t cry… the more the phrase was sung the more rebellious my tears would be, but all were in smile. Was it because my tiredness over the days? Or my weary eyes with no good rest? Or the indulgence-sorta-thing after the long good conversations since the passed two days…? But I know I pretty enjoy this kinda tear-flow, which probably causes no harm but good reflection and contemplation… despite the fact that I was kinda exhausted for the past few days.

I got stuck again. But I guess it was a good stuck…

Mood: Rojak… all jumbled up
Music: Big girls don’t cry, by Fergie (see lyric below)

note: Marcus is running great now – but I ain’t gonna turn him into a mad cow yet…   in fact, this is the third post written with him as my platform.

 

Bedtime murmurs

Brought back this CD some days ago. And now only I have some stolen time to listen to it. Why stolen? I had to as I should’ve been on the bed and not in front of this pc. Couldn’t help much, it’s Scorpion’s.

It’s Scorpion’s Still Loving You. Another very indulging number. Kinda hooked with it since… don’t know when. And the other numbers on the double CD compilation is just awesome. Mainly slow rock that give moderate beats, simple beautiful instruments and finite voice. And this kinda threatens my wake up time later – it’s already 2am now and there’s morning class and work assignment waiting. But what a heck, I like the indulgence. And smack me for that…

Have been away from the mood of writing for some time… I mean the mood of personal writing, just for my own sake and no other reasons involved. There were so so so much on mind all the while and obviously, the flicks in my mind was simply moving thousand times faster than my hands. Sometimes I was kinda thinking, would these happenings be forgotten by me before I could manage to jot ‘em down? No witness… or maybe no? Two brains always work better than one, isn’t it? And you know who you are.

Several, or perhaps plenty of significances shown as time goes by. There were times of heart wrenching and tearful laughters; there were times of escapes and thrown away; there were the remembered and the forbidden; there were the merging of two individuals and also the farewell to the olden buddies; there were goodbye and hello; there were also decisions of giving and taking… Probably all spices were in to the mill called life. And among them, some were dealt with, some were taken, and some were just gotten used to, or simply put aside. Sometimes you just can’t bother much, uh… or is it simply an excuse for not feeling guilty…?

As the New Year started till now, although it wasn’t smooth all the way, but life has been good so far. And it is slowly progressing to the expected point. Hope yours is good too.

Mood: Hypnotizing myself to sleep
Music: Holiday, by Scorpions

 

White rabbit

One pill makes you larger
And one pill makes you small
And the ones that mother gives you
Don’t do anything at all
Go ask Alice
When she’s ten feet tall

And if you go chasing rabbits
And you know you’re going to fall
Tell ‘em a hookah smoking caterpillar
Has given you the call
Call Alice
When she was just small

When men on the chessboard
Get up and tell you where to go
And you’ve just had some kind of mushroom
And your mind is moving low
Go ask Alice
I think she’ll know

When logic and proportion
Have fallen sloppy dead
And the White Knight is talking backwards
And the Red Queen’s off with her head!
Remember what the dormouse said
Feed your head
Feed your head
Feed your head
__________________________________

One nice number that once keep stucked on my mind. Till now still one of my favourites. Classic rock feel intro with a solo definite beat, followed by a another rocker feeling electrical guitar… then there’s Jefferson’s voice. The whole thing made a perfect finish. But looking at the lyrics, it still gives me plenty, I mean real plenty of space to ponder about… *rolls eyes*

 

Sick and song

After one week of negotiation with my biological administrator, I finally fall sick… Negotiation down. Supposed to be working now. But situation really doesn’t allow me to punch in. Thank you very much my dear Ejean, for replacing me…

But it is at least good that I’m ill after I’ve finished recording the song for Lin Peh’s Christmas sing song project. Else I dare not to imagine how darn I’m gonna sing with that sick voice! It’s gonna be really sound like pulling the “zhu lar” up to the tree…

I remember there were few times, I blog about a certain song keeps playing on my mind, or keep me stucked. Now there’s another one – 穷途末路 by Terry 林志炫. Many years back already loved this song so much when I heard it on the radio. And that time, there were no computer no mp3. But time is so different now, and last few days I’ve just found this mp3 somewhere and managed to download it. Listen to this song again, appreciating the words and Terry’s beautiful voice… Oh what a wonderful feeling for a sick person like me.

穷途末路 – 林志炫
这真的叫做　穷途末路
我只能苦笑　你也不想哭
我们不能不看个清楚
尴尬的收拾　这个错误

也许是当初　一时糊涂
你得过且过　我也不在乎
别人用我们定义幸福
我们爱起来　格外辛苦

就是凭着最初那份悸动　错把恋爱当作生活
忽略了　我们竟是如此不同
当我们放弃　不再触碰彼此内心深处伤口
犹豫中　我们一再错过

错过了最适合厮守的时候　总以为准备还不够
一起过日子的念头　深深藏着谁都不说
错过了最适合分手的时候　不甘心就这样罢手
错过了让我们终于能保留给彼此的最后承诺
明知到了尽头　谁也不忍心开口
(明知到了尽头　谁也不肯先开口)

p/s: Stream a snippet of this song here.

 

That’s all

I used to love Jazz music alot since young (cheh, sounds like very old now heh). Made a visit to SLSK’s working place the night before, ended up being fed with lots and lots of Jazzy numbers from rhythmic to mellow – yeah we’re all Jazz lovers. When I got home I was really eager to listen to this particular number by Michael Bublé. I don’t know why… perhaps because of its soothing power? The ever-touching and romantic lyrics? Or maybe…… it just doesn’t need a reason…

I can only give you love that lasts forever
And a promise to be near each time you call
And the only heart I own
For you and you alone
That’s all, that’s all

I can only give you country walks in springtime
And a hand to hold when leaves begin to fall
And a love whose burning light
Will warm the winter night
That’s all, that’s all

There are those I am sure who have told you
They would give you the world for a toy
All I have are these arms to enfold you
And a love time can never destroy

If you’re wondering what I’m asking in return, dear
You’ll be glad to know that my demands are small
Say it’s me that you’ll adore
For now and evermore
That’s all, that’s all

If you’re wondering what I’m asking in return, dear
You’ll be glad to know that my demands are small
Say it’s me that you’ll adore
For now and evermore
That’s all, that’s all

Mood: Stucked (in the song)
Music: That’s all, by Michael Bublé

 

Guilty

I suppose if a song keeps on stucked in my head for the past weeks, then it should appear on my blog. Just a symbolic sign for marker… nothing more than that… hopefully.

Shadows falling, baby, we stand alone
Out on the street anybody you meet got a heartache of their own
Make it a crime to be lonely or sad
You got a reason for livin’

You battle on with the love you’re livin’ on
You gotta be mine
We take it away
It’s gotta be night and day
Just a matter of time

And we got nothing to be guilty of
Our love will climb any mountain near or far, we are
And we never let it end
We are devotion

And we got nothing to be sorry for
Our love is one in a million
Eyes can see that we got a highway to the sky
Don’t wanna hear your goodbye

Pulse’s racing, darling
How grand we are
Little by little we meet in the middle
There’s danger in the dark
Make it a crime to be out in the cold

You got a reason for livin’
You battle on with the love you’re buildin’ on
You gotta be mine
We take it away
It’s gotta be night and day
Just a matter of time

And we got nothing to be guilty of
Our love will climb and mountain near or far, we are
And we never let it end
We are devotion

And we got nothing to be sorry for
Our love is one in a million
Eyes can see that we got a highway to the sky
Don’t wanna hear your goodbye
Don’t wanna hear your… goodbye

~ “Guilty” by Bee Gees ~

It still pops up in my head, either invited, spontaneous or otherwise… and its behaving to become more habitual than usual… like a daily dosage of comfortness and mind-stabilizer…

 

Time, song and things…

5.59 a.m. Quando quando quando – Engelbert Humperdinck
This is the song playin in my list at the moment… Came back long time ago but didn’t sleep. I guess i was too used to my very-late sleepin time, and that’s why i’m still here – bullshitting hahaa!

6.02 a.m. Follow me – Uncle Kracker
Not so a good song at this moment… no such mood… Went to Ringo just now with yeuan and mak. Pretty good night stay… we chit chatted a lot with Ringo and Jeff and some other… Stayed till Ringo closed, were the last customer to leave the place… Recall back, it’s been a very long time since we did that…

6.07 a.m. This weight – Van Morrison
Yeash this song is much better at this time this pace and this – mood! Logging in to my yahoo mail… forgot something that i promised so gotta do it now – send the words to Ringo again. He said to me he lost it somewhere hahaa… I thought man, luchyly it was just the lyric, not the mp3 song. Else i’ll be headache lah hahahaaa!

6.21 a.m. Getaran Jiwa – P. Ramlee
The traffic was a bit slow… and got a few songs skipped. Not really in those mood… This classic number from P. Ramlee is a great one… with a very simple but beautiful combination of the piano, a lil’ percussion and violin. Done! I mean my email to Ringo… and other checking deleting and singing off thingy…

6.29 a.m. Fallen – Lauren Wood
A lil’ bit slow swayin beat… start to feel a bit sleepy now. Suddenly think back the incident in projet destina. Went there with yeuan after sending mak home. We were there again chit chatting about things before this surprising meet with Connie and her sis. She’s back from the UK alas. Then it turned out that 4 girls busy talking… Connie talked most and more on her experiences in the UK, Barcelona and Rome. But that alone didn’t made the night up until we got this very ‘fantabulous’ customer came in. As i was being told he’s kinda fella from the black side and was known for his ‘bravery’. (Mind you, the list is playing Set a Drift on Memory Bliss of You by PM Dawn now) Well what he did… i guess was related to the balance he got back from the attendant which he think wasn’t correct. So at first his anak buah asked the attendant and then it turned out that he was kinda provocked and head to the counter raising his voice shouting all sorts of unpleasant insults and blablabla… It’s just like you can smell that somethin is gonna happen. At this time a guy from another table was shocked by the voice and without wasting much time he quickly asked his fellow buddies to leave the place – like a frightened micky! But then we, the 4 cool ladies were still sitting there as if watching a live theatre play. Interesting man!!! (Now, the list turn to Hijau by Zainal Abidin) Hahahaaa…! In the end that man found out it was his fault after shouting long and much chekings in the computer… so he was like feeling guilty and sorry for the pitty attendant and try to make it up by showing his card telling who is he and how ‘powerful’ he is and even said to the attendant that he would treat him at his restaurant. But his Malay was really so sendirian berhad that made us laughed and laughed and laughed! In the end everythin was settled, they went back to their table which was just right behind ours to continue with their food. While they were leaving and passed by our table, guess what, this was what we heard: “Eh soli ah dek, sulah mabok lar hahahaa” He even raised his palm up to his forehead while saying that… After all we kept on recalling and laughing that we almost ROTF! Gosh… stomach also pain edi hahahahaaaaaa…! Think back now, especially when the another table left in a hurry, we were much daring hehheheee!

6.53 a.m. Why – Frankie Avalon & Fabian
I guess this will be the ? last song before i go for my sleep…? Really adore this song very much. A very loving song that full of happiness feelings. Simple and just nice~

6.56 a.m. Lagenda – Sheila Majid
Not much to think about right now… except to sleep. After i wake up later will need to send the bike for service and pick up the magazines from Thiruna… Signing off!