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And yet… I am still feeling a little holdin’ back…

No matter how, all my bags are packed and I’m ready to go.

Another 90 minutes before the cab would pick me up…

And another 360 minutes before the flight departs…

I’ll be coming to you.

Mood: Contemplated
Music: Irreplaceable, by Beyonce Knowles

p/s: The kinky entry on the gatal minah tudung ketat would see you later when I get back from my five days off. Till then, stay kinky… ;P

People say
Love is blind

I say
Love is blind
But not the person

So open your eyes
And look

—

I once read
Do not cry for a man who doesn’t worth your tears
For the one who worth ‘em
Will never make you cry

I thought
Tears flow because you do love
And you do care
And at times
Tears flow because we see things better
Much better than how we used to
So
Cry for your realizations
And sensibility
For no longer trapped in the game of emotion
Shouldn’t you?

Things that were wondered all the time
May never have an answer
Holding on or letting go
Say and perhaps, end it all…

So cry baby, cry!

Gone were the days of hectic and packed schedules in studies with that tensed up mind in most time… Finally everything is over.

I feel so much relieved to do the things I like to do… that I have more time and ‘mind allocation’ – heh. And most of all, I feel happy to hop in to st@r office regularly again, going here and there and come back with stories and pictures; and at times still enjoying working like a dog brewing the best cup of cappuccino or toasting the most presentable English muffin with smoked salmon…

I thought of writing something else, of which I came across way before when I was preparing studying somewhere for my final exam. It was a kinda kinky encounter I would say, heh. Kinky? Yeah kinky… And I thought of naming the encounter as “Minah tudung ketat dahagakan kote”. Now you wouldn’t say it doesn’t sound kinky, aight? No joke, it WAS the thing I came across some time back. It shall come up in the next post… when I get the time to write them out. Interesting. And I was sorta blown away… Just stay tuned. I’d be back.

Mood: Light & easy
Music:  You don’t have to be a star, by Marilyn McCoo & Billy Davis Jr

It’s just farcically laughable… but I think am a person with bad karma… Never a lucky one to get any good deals or offer. Windfall is just a far cry from life. And often there will be obstacles for every attempt of reaching out…

It happened again. Almost during or right before every critical times in life, something would pop up and stood as a hindrance. It just keep stirring every psychological bit of you, till you have so much and that alot of stuffs on mind, that deadly trying to pull you off from the track you should be on.

I couldn’t help but striving hard to deal with every bit of it, telling myself there’s no way to afford such more hindrance at this time, because any mistakes in between would just cost! Be they time, effort, money and emotion. I can only tell myself to buckle up and continue walking without looking much to what’s on my left and right… Or else, I would fall hard. Real hard.

There were times I was just few dials away, but eventually the handset had to be put down. I couldn’t foresee what might come ahead from the other end, that might throw me into another swirl of emotion battle. There’s no reason to be pathetic right now, other than keeping my spirit high with plenty of facts and figures for the papers coming ahead. 

Mood: Don’t let me down when I deserved to be up
Music: Turn back the clock, by Johnny Hates Jazz